in that case it's likely a depression symptom, caused by the stress.

It's probably depression adjacent, yeah.

Granted, I don't feel depressed, but I do feel incredibly exhausted after the last three years I have had, lol. I'll spare you the trauma dump xD

I have, however, started to wonder if the ADHD suspicions my boyfriend and I have about me, are actually CPTSD symptoms instead. Found a list of 17 symptoms for CPTSD on a health organization website a month-ish ago and I scored 11, which was a bit like "okay, spicy." One of my sibs struggles a lot with similar symptoms to me and is in therapy. The term CPTSD has been used in their context so now I'm like "kewl. Awesome. Whatever".

don't worry, after the last decade i can trauma dump anybody into oblivion :).

anyway, of course we like to have a label for our issues, because it makes the problem more approachable and feeling real (in the meaning of "oh, I'm not the only one"). but at the end of the day it's only important to get help. even things that sound trivial can have a major impact on our performance and quality of life.

fingers crossed, that you find your way!

daily

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Haha, I bet! Life is a goofy frenemy, isnt it? What have you had to deal with the past decade?

Yeah, I have pretty significant pet peeve around not being believed so getting a label meant a lot to me until it didn't. Figured that it's not gonna change anything whether or not I have confirmation of my suspensions or not. I was never interested in meds, just wanted someone to believe me. And now I'm like: but why, though? I mean, I know why and I know it goes deep, but I don't think it's the right thing for my process to lean into the need for other people's validation of my experiences and emotions. It doesn't matter. The people who made me feel like that my whole life aren't a part of it anymore.

Currently, I think the inability to be creative and the self isolation has a lot to do with recent events in my life that has drained me. Lost my beloved company after three years of fighting to stay afloat amidst wars and inflation and AI, sacrificing sleep, hobbies and social time, had family drama that resulted in my siblings and me cutting our parents out of our lives and was diagnosed with the pre-stages to breast cancer in June and had my breast cut off in July. I am still healing from the operation. It's been a bit intense, ngl xD that's why I don't think it's ADHD related, but still felt the meme was relatable! 🥰

Great comment. I also find routine critical to getting shit done. Even to the point where I'll need to symbolically enact the routine if I don't have the time to do it properly. So like if I have no time to workout I'll just do a single pushup and tell myself "whatever! Today that counts!" obviously there's a risk of that becoming the new routine, but at least if I'm still doing some part of the habit I feel it's still in play and I can work on devoting more time and effort to it.

Not a cure just a strategy I found useful that might help someone. I’ll quit trying to help people

My point is that executive dysfunction is the literal inability to do what you're describing (don't think, just do).

ADHD is a neurological disorder. Executive dysfunction is a primary symptom of said disorder.

Your "help" is the same as telling a depressed person to just cheer up, or someone with anxiety to stop worrying so much.

This is me in this exact moment

Alas.

I have adhd and I know what it is and what it feels like. That works for me. Maybe it doesnt work for you. Maybe you just want to be unhappy idk. Either way good luck brother

oh no, you see, I don't feel like I've earned that yet, so ah, more sitting I guess.

"My blade will rend you into a fine paste, in 1 MILLION strikes"