I find that it helps me better tolerate unhappiness rather than actually making me happy.

Why I'm high rn tbh

Man, 10 years ago all I needed was a toke to have fun watching movies/TV, playing games, or listening to music. Then it slowly changed to booze that did that for me. Now neither do it for me and I don't even like smoking anymore tbh. It just makes me feel anxious and let's my bad thoughts run rampant and now I just drink to numb myself to how shitty my life is.

I'm 32 and still living with my mom because it's too fucking expensive to live alone and I don't really have anyone I trust enough to be a roommate. Living with randoms sounds like hell, I don't want a repeat of being 14 and having a shit ton of rules like "no friends allowed, no SO's allowed, no noise after 8pm" etc while also paying 1k+ CAD.

The world sucks tbh I miss just being able to take a toke and chill to games or music.