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Good! It's finally gotten warm here and that means I can get the summer dresses out again! Work was a little stressful this week but I managed. I went to a sex work exhibition with a friend today and then saw another for coffee in the same city. The second one is someone I met at a trans speed dating thing two years back and I quite enjoy our friendship though we never actually dated. Other than that I had my 2 year appointment with my endo this week and she was very happy with my levels (I am, too) and told me that I can basically just continue my current medication for the next 10+ years lol. Now that GRS is done I don't think I'll change anything about my HRT regimen in the foreseeable future even though injections would be nice at some point. But I can't be bothered to work that out right now.

I had some passing brainworms this week but they've subsided again because I had some nice interactions with other women in public which reassured me that I look okay. I'm still really scared that I look ugly or weird but I think that's just not true and my brain not being caught up to my new physical reality. I wonder how long that will take.

i had a lot of interesting discussions with people the last week that really spun my head around :) was fun

also i spent like 10 hours by the local river this week, in the sun/shade of trees. very comfy, with some snacks i can recommend highly. exposure to plants / river / wind is 10/10 experience and peak human life :p