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They say the next time I fall asleep, I could die. I risk death every time I blink. They can’t make sense of it. They tell me the surgery was a success, yet all their tests and science have no answer for why I'm withering away. I know what’s happening. I’ve seen it before.

I'm writing this now because when I die, the truth will die with me. I’m the last one who knows, the last living member of the project. I checked as soon as I came out of surgery. I hope that someone will read this someday and find a way to stop it. I’m warning you now, what you are about to read is better left unknown. I’m a fool, I’m posting this because I still believe in some hope. I’ll write as much as I can before exhaustion overtakes me. Before my eyes close and I’m back in that void where it holds dominion over me. These memories were locked away for so long.

My grandfather was a devout Christian. Everything he did was in the service of God. On bright, sunny days, he would thank God for allowing us to see such beauty, and when it rained, he would thank God for the gift of keeping that beauty alive. He was dying for years, though he always kept a smile on for us. I remember him spending weeks in the hospital in between surgeries. He wore a smile through all the pain so none of us would see it. He was always lively, always grateful to be alive.

I was 11 years old when he died. I was sitting alone next to his hospital bed, waiting for him to wake up while my mother made some phone calls in the hallway. We were told the surgery had gone well. They had removed some tumors from his liver. Standard stuff by then. The doctors whispered about some complications. They said that while he was under anesthesia, he opened his eyes, but it was nothing to worry about. I remember how tired he looked lying there; I hadn’t seen him like that before. He opened his eyes slowly and looked directly at me. There was no pain in his face. No confusion. He looked like something had broken inside his head. I didn’t even recognize him behind those blank, horrified eyes. He spoke the last words he would ever say, and I’ll never forget them.

“There is nothing after death.”

He closed his eyes, and a few minutes later, he was dead. The doctor said he’d simply lost the bit of fight he had left in him. It never made sense.

People wake up during surgery more than you’d think. Way more. Most don’t remember it. That’s what they say anyway. The brain protects itself. Blocks it out. But not all of them. Some of them open their eyes.

I was thirty when I joined the research team, eager to make use of my medical doctorate. I didn’t just want to help people; I wanted to change the way we help people. Lofty goals, I guess. The study focused on anesthesia anomalies in patients with serious, life-threatening illnesses. Over a dozen successful operations had ended with the patient dying inexplicably afterward. They were all just different enough that it was hard to see the pattern, but Bershide saw it. In every single one of those cases, the patient opened their eyes during the surgery.

Dr. Bershide headed the research team. He was a neurosurgeon with an ego and a father rich enough to own the hospital where we conducted the study. Bershide strutted around the halls, distracting busy nurses with his delusions of grandeur. It was as if he expected everyone, from the Administrator to the Janitor, to recognize him. A celebrity in his own mind.

Things moved slowly, as most medical trials do. Bershide was eager to get started, a little too eager. More than once, he clashed with team members who were simply trying to follow protocol. Luckily, I never had to deal with him directly. As one of the younger doctors on the team, I was assigned to work with the patients. Bershide cared about the glory, the reputation, but when it came to the patients he would be writing about, he never asked a single question about them.

I conducted interviews for potential candidates, and that’s when I met Ashley Barnes. Her prognosis wasn’t good. She had about six months, by most estimates, though you couldn’t tell by looking at her. She was lively. Smiling and happy. I think that’s why I was drawn to her. She had agreed to an experimental surgery, not a promising one either. Everything on her paperwork screamed desperation.

“Just the basic questions,” I began, sitting across from her.

“Where should I start?” She asked confidently, her back straight and eyes level. After a full day of interviewing shells of people barely able to speak above the sound of their groans, this was a welcome change.

“Your name would be a good place to begin.”

“Right, Ashley Barnes. I’m a mother.”

“Ok, is that your job title?”

“One of them, but that’s the only one that matters.” She responded with a smile.

“Ok, Ashley. Why do you want to be selected for this study?”

Ashley shifted in her chair. She put her hands together and exhaled. She spoke in a practiced tone, as if she were reciting a script she had memorized.

“I have an English degree, I was a teacher for 13 years, and despite my diagnosis, my brain is still very intact. I can give clear and concise feedback. I will understand questions and terminology… I’ll give clear feedback.” She stuttered over her words. “Sorry, I meant I’ll be able to give technical feedback, or I’ll be able to explain what you need to know from me with medical language.”

Her lips shook with nervousness. This was her last chance, a last Hail Mary to escape death for just a bit longer. In her mind, she had to recite this script perfectly; she had to be chosen, or that was it.

“You can breathe, Ashley. You meet all the cognitive requirements. Besides, that’s not what the question was about. The question was to see why you wanted this, not why you’re qualified.”

“Oh. That makes sense, well, I want this because…”

“Because you’re a mother.” I cut in.

“Yes.”

The first day of the treatments brought a hum of excitement. We had closed off half of the hospital's 4th floor. A maze of empty, sterile hallways and heavy double doors separated us from any distraction. Bershide seemed right at home.

The process sounded simple enough. Patients would undergo their scheduled surgeries, then remain under the effects of anesthesia for at least two hours afterward. It was dangerous to keep someone under anesthesia any longer than necessary. I remember wondering how Bershide had gotten approval. When the patient's treatment was concluded, they would be placed in a viewing room on our floor. If they woke up, we would attempt to communicate with them through a series of blinks and eye movements.

“They won’t be able to move; it'll be similar to paralysis due to the anesthesia.” Dr. Bershide directed us.

“We might not have long, so we must make contact as quickly as possible.”

We heard the creak of a door as the first subject was wheeled into the viewing room.

“If our subjects are conscious, then we need to know what they are experiencing, what they are seeing, what they are thinking, everything.”

Something like this had never been attempted. Active contact with a subject under anesthesia. The patient was wheeled into place, and Bershide smirked.

“Everyone, keep your eyes on him. This is the first of many; it's going to be a long night. There’s coffee in the breakroom.”

The first subject never woke up. Bershide seemed annoyed at that. It was a middle-aged man who was in a 50/50 battle with lung cancer. When he woke up naturally, Bershide sat down and began watching videos on his phone, waving his hand at the team. We went in and took care of the patient. Got him to the recovery wing and set the room up for the next one.

One after another, each patient woke up naturally and went on their way. Every time Bershide would sink deeper into his chair and glare harder into his phone.

The next subject was Ashley Barnes. It was strange to see her like that. She didn’t have her signature smile or determined eyes. An oxygen mask clung to her thin, pale face. It was as if all the pain and exertion of battling cancer only manifested itself when she slept. When her body was too exhausted to pretend it wasn’t dying.

Her eyes cracked open lazily. They drifted around the room, passing over every object like wallpaper. Then they stopped.

In the corner.

They stared for several seconds. Every second she looked at that empty, mundane corner, her eyes grew wider.

Bershide rushed to her.

“I’m Dr. Bershide, the neurosurgeon. Don’t panic, you're under anesthesia. Can you blink?”

Ashley's eyes stayed fixed on the corner. I moved up and stood next to Bershide. My eyes followed Ashley's.

“Are you sure she's conscious?” another member of the team asked. Bershide shushed them and snapped his fingers, waving forward a small board of letters. He held the board to Ashley's gaze.

“I'm going to ask you to blink as I move my pen across the board, that way you can spell out what you want to say to me. Do you understand?”

Ashley's eyes looked from the board to Bershide and back to the corner. Each time they switched back was more frantic than the last.

Bershide moved in front of her eyeline, commanding her attention. He began to move his pen across the letters slowly. Ashley looked from him to the board. She blinked.

“Write that down!” Bershide commanded.

A member of the team began jotting the letters down with a pen.

Bershide began to pick up the pace, and Ashley kept up. The pen scribbled sixteen letters before Ashley sto...

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