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The original was posted on /r/tifu by /u/resident_god on 2026-07-03 07:53:45+00:00.

Like my stomach is absolutely CHURNING.

Today I read and absolutely demolished 'Eileen' by Ottessa Moshfegh. That was one of the most revolting books I have ever read. It wasn't a horribly written, and Moshfegh writes excellently but it was GRIM.

But I also made the absolute horrendous mistake of lending it to a professional colleague because I was still in utter shock at the entire thing that I wasn't thinking AT ALL.

I have no idea how to get it back. I'm literally terrified that they're going to read it and think I'm some freak because FUCK I WAS THE ONE READING IT.

I have no idea why I offered it, I don't think it ever actually like settled into me that it was as horrifically detailed and skewed until it simmered in my gullet.

I'm literally dreading coming into work and half tempted to ask for it back to save my professionalism ngl.

I don't know what to do. Like at all. So I utterly fucked up. Keep in mind, it's a male colleague so there's no way that they're going to actually think it's a normal book. I did warn him that it was extremely dark but I don't think I was able to actually articulate just how vividly graphic and depraved it was.

Do y'all think I should just lie and say that I wanted to lend it to a friend and that he should bring it back to me or something? Would that be timely enough considering that it's literally the Fourth of July weekend and I won't see him until maybe Monday (and considering the fact that he might have taken it home so he'll just with forget to return it or bring it back by Tuesday, at most)

TL;DR: I lent a male coworker a grotesque book centric on female depravity and I fear it will ruin my reputation because of just how sickening it is. 😭