I realised as a very young child that nothing ever works out the way you think it will and proceeded to imagine every possible worst case scenario as a preventative measure. This was stupid.

Two things:

One: There is a joke about internet browsers in there I just can’t thing of a good one, you know because they are on edge instead of a decent browser.

Two, when I get bogged down in mental arguments with myself, I distract myself with help from my wife. Cuddles work wonders here.

Omg i did that too. Then justified it as planning for the worst.

Then have lived long enough to have had some of the worst case plans be needed

So now it's even worse in my brain.