in particular, im talking about music unrelated to existential themes. sometimes i find myself listening to some pop music as every good practicing homosexual does, and the song's lyrics will be "please dance it will be fun" (sung by a woman) (more poetic) but what i will feel is like a mixture of melancholy and smallness within the universe. i understand music is supposed to drive emotion but i feel like maybe my emotion wires are crossed because the intended outcome (carefree, jovial, energetic) and the actual outcome (morose, calmness, emptiness) are rather incongruous. so i wanted to know if others had similar experiences, and also maybe why that is. i wanna stop being existential at the club, dammit, i wanna dance til skin falls off my bones and make out with men!

I sometime feel a bit like this. A huge flow of emotions that make me question who I am, what's the point of... I don't know... everything ?
But it's more because of the lyriks. When they really touch me, when they are well written or when they hide a powerfull story. Talking about homosexuality, the song "Enolay Gay" is one of them 😉.

In your case, does it happen randomly, or did you notice some patterns or elements that may trigger this feeling ? The rythm, the melody, the environment ?

Yes. Especially chill songs with high echo effect.

I don't think this is necessarily unintended by the artist. The band Stars comes to mind. Or the Midnight. They definitely try to hit those very raw, human emotions, and dancing to pop music as you lust for a stranger/friend on an ephemeral night is extremely human.

I think it tends to happen later in the night. I could be listening to the same song on the radio or at the gym and not feel those same things, just feeling pumped instead