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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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The title page of the zine. At the top of the page is a cutout of a woman wearing a peach silk dress, fishnets, and white ruffly socks sitting on a leather sofa. The hands and the neckline are cut out so that the woman remains anonymous and faceless. Below the magazine cutout of the woman there is white cutout text with a blue background reading "MY NAME IS". Below that text is the name "VIVIAN" where the V is made up of two long skinny trans flags with stripes running lengthwise. The letters in Vivian are each colored with different background and all have white text.

The second page of the zine. Four curved arrows in the top left of the page point towards the black text with a yellow background, "TRANS GLORY FIT". Just below that text is a colored pencil crosshatch of green and red, evoking a plaid pattern. To the right of the crosshatch and below the text is a doodle of a white skirt with the cutout text "skirt." beneath it, black with a white background. To the right of the skirt is a spirally doodle in blue colored pencil that could perhaps be the eddies of a stream, an otherwordly plant, or wispy hair. Bottom right of the crosshatch, below the skirt, and below the blue wisps are four pink inward curving triangles at different angles all in a line, abstract but perhaps evoking the shape of ovaries. The bottom half of the page is filled with a cutout of a high-top converse tennish shoe, white, black, and gray on a green background. The shoe is untied down to where the high top turns into the body of the show. There are small flowers growing out of the shoe and around the shoe.

The third page of the zine. In the center of the page is a slanted cutout of an ear with a dangly earring hanging from it. The earring from the bottom up has a large ring with a gem of some sort dangling in the center, above that a gem embedded in a ring of metal, and a small ring that encircles the earlobe. In the top left of the page to the left of the earring cutout is the text "Closet?", white in a bubbly font on a dark-pink-red background. Below that text is a colored pencil drawing of a square trans flag. On the right side of the page across from the trans flag and on the other side of the earring is a colored pencil sketch of a rectangular pansexual flag. Below the earring and the pan flag is the text 'and "transexuality."' black on a white background. below that text is a colored pencil sketch of a pan with the text "pan" written in black colored pencil. Across the bottom of the page is the text "LESBIAN" dark pink on a white background in a sans-serif font.

The fourth and fifth pages of the zine as one large spread. The 45 degree slanted text in black colored pencil, "I am a girl / with a short skirt / and a looooong jacket", occupies 2/3 of the left page and 1/3 of the right page. The lowercase j of jacket is written in cursive such that the tail of the j underlines the word jacket. After the word girl there is a purple colored pencil heart, much like the purple heart emoji ๐Ÿ’œ. To the top left of the text is a quarter-circle cutout of a rainbow that ends in a cloud, all on a dark blue background. across the bottom of the page is an assortment of sprouting wildflowers of different colors. Flying off from the wildflowers is a monarch butterfly, to the right of the text and a good distance above the flowers. The eye might not at first catch it, but to the right of the wildflowers in the bottom right corner of the page is text written in black colored pencil, reading, "who are you?".

This is a zine I made just before coming out. It is very important to me so please be kind :)

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strawberry_enjoyer42 lemmy.blahaj.zone strawberry_enjoyer42@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-04-20
#2 · Quote Reply

Wow, this... makes me feel things. I'd name the feelings, but emotions are tricky. It's very beautiful. <3

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#3 · Quote Reply

Is the way Iโ€™ve included alt-text good?

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gandalf_der_13te feddit.org gandalf_der_13te@feddit.org
Joined: 2026-08-01
#4 · (edited) Quote Reply

this one is nice!

long jackets are kinda cool. they need to at least go over your ass.

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gandalf_der_13te feddit.org gandalf_der_13te@feddit.org
Joined: 2026-08-01
#5 · Quote Reply

Is the way Iโ€™ve included alt-text good?

yes i think so. i can read it by hovering over the image (in lemmy web UI).

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#6 · Quote Reply

yes i think so. i can read it by hovering over the image (in lemmy web UI).

yay :)

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#7 · Quote Reply

this one is nice! long jackets are kinda cool. they need to at least go over your ass.

Thank you :)

itโ€™s a reference to this song Short Skirt / Long Jacket - CAKE

and also this photo from before I transitioned

A photo of a cute girl who didnโ€™t know she was a girl yet. She is wearing a white mohair skirt, a green jacket, and a tie with plaid decorations, chains, and embroidered eyes

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TRAHR quokk.au TRAHR@quokk.au
Joined: 2026-08-17
#8 · Quote Reply

Thatโ€™s so cute, I love good vibe zines.

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Bryllyg piefed.blahaj.zone Bryllyg@piefed.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2025-06-06
#9 · Quote Reply

Thank you for opening your zine for us, it speaks volumes about your journey and is so special and precious. Really hits me in all the right places and the art style is really neat.

I love it!!

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Domi lemmy.blahaj.zone Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-01-18
#10 · Quote Reply

Girl I fucking love this. I read your post about being anxious about revealing your name but I'm so glad you posted it, it's so beautiful and it just made my cry instantly.

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Eskarina (she/her) piefed.blahaj.zone Eskarina@piefed.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-20
#11 · Quote Reply

Awww, that's real nice :3

Took me a second to realize what a pan might do there x)

Might encourage me to share some myself.

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DaPorkchop_ [any] lemmy.ml DaPorkchop_@lemmy.ml
Joined: 2023-06-02
#12 · Quote Reply

wow, this makes me feel... nostalgic? longing? i'm not sure, i can't quite put my finger on what emotion it is, but i absolutely love this. it's very clear why this would be important to you :)
thanks for sharing!

p.s. i think your name is common enough that you don't have to worry about anything :3

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DaPorkchop_ [any] lemmy.ml DaPorkchop_@lemmy.ml
Joined: 2023-06-02
#13 · Quote Reply

Thank you :) itโ€™s a reference to this song Short Skirt / Long Jacket - CAKE and also this photo from before I transitioned

i fuckin love that outfit, damn <3

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Hexarei beehaw.org Hexarei@beehaw.org
Joined: 2023-06-05
#14 · Quote Reply

Hi Vivian!! I'm Vanessa :) love a good V name lol

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PyroNeurosis lemmy.blahaj.zone PyroNeurosis@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2023-11-09
#15 · Quote Reply

A while back, I learned about all the discord girls having their preferred colors for heart emojis. Is yours also purple (as mine is)?

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chattre lemmy.blahaj.zone chattre@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-03-11
#16 · Quote Reply

this feels powerful holy shit

I didn't even know what a zine was before this, very unique :)

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#17 · Quote Reply

A while back, I learned about all the discord girls having their preferred colors for heart emojis. Is yours also purple (as mine is)?

My favorite color is green, followed by gold, followed by purple :)

๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

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Tanis Nikana lemmy.world tanisnikana@lemmy.world
Joined: 2023-07-19
#18 · Quote Reply

Now this is good art! Fantastic work, Vivian. Youโ€™re also now a member of the first name crew, and myself, Brooke, Nissa, and a few others are glad to have you.

Never stop making art.

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PyroNeurosis lemmy.blahaj.zone PyroNeurosis@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2023-11-09
#19 · Quote Reply

My favorite color is green, followed by gold, followed by purple :) ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

Very regal!

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#20 · Quote Reply

Wow, this... makes me feel things. I'd name the feelings, but emotions are tricky. It's very beautiful. &lt;3

๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

One of the best compliments you could give me is that my art makes you feel things. Thank you

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#21 · Quote Reply

i fuckin love that outfit, damn &lt;3

awww thanks. The first time I ever went out in public not as a man was when I wore that outfit to a club

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#22 · Quote Reply

Thank you for opening your zine for us, it speaks volumes about your journey and is so special and precious. Really hits me in all the right places and the art style is really neat. I love it!!

What a nice compliment :)

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#23 · Quote Reply

Girl I fucking love this. I read your post about being anxious about revealing your name but I'm so glad you posted it, it's so beautiful and it just made my cry instantly.

Iโ€™m glad I decided to post it too :) Life is too short to worry, and I feel iโ€™m finding a good community here so the risk is worth it

Iโ€™m happy you connected with it ๐Ÿ’œ

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#24 · Quote Reply

wow, this makes me feel... nostalgic? longing? i'm not sure, i can't quite put my finger on what emotion it is, but i absolutely love this. it's very clear why this would be important to you :) thanks for sharing! p.s. i think your name is common enough that you don't have to worry about anything :3

I realized today after posting this that I feel like Iโ€™m embodying the girl I was depicting in the zine for what feels like the first time :)

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#25 · Quote Reply

Hi Vivian!! I'm Vanessa :) love a good V name lol

Hi Vanessa!!! V is my favorite letter of my name. My old name had a v and an n and I wanted to hang on to those letters

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#26 · Quote Reply

Awww, that's real nice :3 Took me a second to realize what a pan might do there x) Might encourage me to share some myself.

I cracked like an egg into a pan LOL ๐Ÿณ

Nono thatโ€™s a joke I actually just love getting down and dirty with cookware

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#27 · Quote Reply

Awww, that's real nice :3 Took me a second to realize what a pan might do there x) Might encourage me to share some myself.

I hope you do share something if that feels good to you :)

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#28 · Quote Reply

Now this is good art! Fantastic work, Vivian. Youโ€™re also now a member of the first name crew, and myself, Brooke, Nissa, and a few others are glad to have you. Never stop making art.

Thaaannnnnkssss ๐Ÿคญ

This made me all giggly and blushy. I appreciate the compliment

Wow what great company to be in! First name crew โ˜บ๏ธ

I donโ€™t plan to stop :) Maybe Iโ€™ll post some music sometime

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#29 · Quote Reply

this feels powerful holy shit I didn't even know what a zine was before this, very unique :)

Thanks! Theyโ€™re very fun to make, especially in a group with friends. My YDSA chapter has had a few zine making workshops (I made this at one) and they are great for distributing art and political education to a lot of people!

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Eskarina (she/her) piefed.blahaj.zone Eskarina@piefed.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-20
#30 · Quote Reply

I cracked like an egg into a pan LOL ๐Ÿณ Nono thatโ€™s a joke I actually just love getting down and dirty with cookware

Haha, oops, thought it's just playing on pansexuality, move along ๐Ÿ˜…

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#31 · Quote Reply

Haha, oops, thought it's just playing on pansexuality, move along ๐Ÿ˜…

thatโ€™s what it was Iโ€™m just being a goober

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Eskarina (she/her) piefed.blahaj.zone Eskarina@piefed.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-20
#32 · Quote Reply

thatโ€™s what it was Iโ€™m just being a goober

Ah, gullible me strikes again :3

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#33 · Quote Reply

Ah, gullible me strikes again :3

sorry sweetie ๐Ÿคญ

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n0xy (it/its) lemmy.dbzer0.com N0tTr0xy@lemmy.dbzer0.com
Joined: 2026-05-11
#34 · Quote Reply

My favorite color is green, followed by gold, followed by purple :) ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

green hrearts are a thing ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š

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Vivian lemmy.blahaj.zone thestrike@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Joined: 2026-02-11
#35 · Quote Reply

green hrearts are a thing ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š

mmm true but ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ makes me happy

A bunch of my clothes are green

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