Why would someone with a good job want to leave, and still be afraid to quit?

Hey, I'm Damon. I’m 31, and I work as a chip engineer in Shenzhen, China. The pay is decent, and I get weekends off—at least on paper.But is this job really as good as it sounds?

This Sunday, my girlfriend and I spend the afternoon at a free public library near my home. Along the way, I will share you how I entered China’s chip industry, what this job has given me, why leaving feels so risky, and how work has shaped our plans for marriage after 17 years together.

If a job gave you stability but kept taking away your time, would you stay? What would you do in my position?

Chapters:
00:00 - A “Good Job” at 31: Why I’m Afraid to Quit
00:47 - A Free Public Library: Why I Study Here Every Sunday
01:54 - I Got Lucky: From Physics to China’s Chip Industry
03:12 - Why I Quit My First Job and Moved to Shenzhen
04:12 - 9-to-6 on Paper, 24/7 On Call in Reality
05:37 - Planning My Next Move—Without Quitting My Job
06:40 - A Library Card in Minutes: Borrowing and Disinfecting Books
07:20 - 17 Years Together: Why We Still Haven’t Married
09:11 - Another Sunday Goodbye: Coming Home Alone
09:48 - One Last Run Before Monday

What's the point of communism if you still have to work yourself to death? May as well be a capitalist wage slave, what would the difference be?

Because it wasn't communism in the first place, because communism won't work in a vacuum. Xi Jin Ping know they would have more leverage if they run in capitalism with some socialism law in place, so they let business/corporate run wild and reeling in if they go too far. That's exactly same as USA but with more teeth. People who tell you China is communist is either a bunch of tankie that trying to lie to you, or the communism in this case simply mean authoritarian.

If you think China has communism, you're just deluded.

Communism was attempted to be forced under Mao. Since then heavily controlled capitalism.