I have to spend the day with a group of people I don't know. Main consultation is they won't interact with me much.

This post is for casual conversation if you don’t feel like making a post of your own.

It's raining a lot! I tried to go outside to deal with the tomatoes, but they'll have to deal with themselves until it stops. Even the sun hat did not help. We don't have an umbrella.

I need to make the candied jalapenos today. I hate the slicing stage, but the jalapenos are huge so there's less jalapenos overall which...my brain likes.

The dehydrator arrived damaged, weeeeep weep. They don't want it back though and gave twin a refund anyway, so I guess it might also be void warranty time in an attempt to make it work anyway??? (the heat turns out, but there's no fan. Something is clearly moving inside which seems bad, so maybe it's just a screw or something??)

I feel myself slipping back into my old habit of Restricting my food intake to have a sense of control/regulation.

Anorexia habits are hard to stop so I'm just letting it happen. I've tried getting help but there's only so much they can do.

I've had counceling and Specialist counceling for it.

I am eating but its just not enough to sustain the body properly.

I think it's common for those on the spectrum to have issues with food and control. So Disorder eating is a typical result.

Not exactly a nice way to spend a birthday.

This is just a comment to get it out of my system a little.

The candied jalapenos are now canning! 10 half pint jars canning, 4 half pint (or one quart) in the fridge!

Sorry to hear about your struggles. I also struggle with this and it's manifest in surprising ways. I thought I was over my disordered eating of my teens and 20s where the act was intentional. Now in my 40s it's back but it's not conscious. In a way it's easier because I'm not fighting my conscious brain and I am able to eat enough food, I just need to trick myself. It was really uncomfortable to realize that it's part of the same thing but understanding it is helping me get through it.

Hell yeah candied jalapenos are such a treat.

I cleaned my dishwasher filter and it feels good man.

I bought some cleaning chemicals that you run through a cycle and am giving it a shot. I recently ran a cycle with a cup of vinegar in the machine which was primarily to help remove hard water deposits from my canning jars, but it also seemed to have done some cleaning. The product I am trying is mainly out of curiosity, I don't think it will make that big of a difference. But then I'll know!

I'm pretty sure all the cans sealed! But there's a quart still in the fridge and I'm having a roast beef sandwich today just to put some of those extras on there!

I feel that. I descaled my coffee pot this morning!

That's what I'm noticing, Little things my brain does which are linked to the disordered eating which I was doing really well with (Eating "Normally" that is).

I'm in my 30s, yet it's still just there itching away on my thoughts.
Everything just feeds itself with the ill habits.

I'm sorry it's there wiggling its way back into your thoughts.