I'm really sorry everyone...this is all my own damn fault, I'm not denying that in the slightest.

I'm sorry, but I guess I'm sticking around. I'm not dead just yet. I'm making a new account and starting over. But...at least, maybe you'll believe me now that I'm not actually a good person?
I'm really sorry. I'm actually the worst. I know that.

Maybe I should have died. Maybe. But...instead I guess I'll bother you all some more, again, from zero.
I'm sorry for being such an unimaginable fuckup...

Sincerely,
a very depressed trans girl,
Miisha

Y'all should be angry at me. You should hate me, at least as much as I hate myself. I'm taking up space in this community that other people need and deserve...god I'm pathetic

I'm glad you're still here ❤️

There’s unlimited space for you.

Thanks ❤️
I'm kinda not right now, but it'll get better

Thanks. I feel like an intruder, but I guess I'm still here, so...

You are loved, you are valid, and I know that you are beautiful, gorgeous and worthy!

I don't deserve words as kind as those. And definitely not beautiful, you'll see once I start posting pics on my new account 😂
Thank you ❤️

love, please allow us to be present for you.
i don't want you gone anywhere, even if it's not up to me to decide (your choice).

you will always be :

• a woman
• a woman
• a goddam beautiful woman
• valid
• loved
• heard
• expected here

you are a wonderful person and i am utterly shocked and angry beyond sanity for what the psychatrist dared to told you !

i am tempted to ask for name and shame the fucker here, but itd be better to tell to a local group nearby your location so that she cannot harm anyone ever again.

I can only sent you my hugs, we are here for you, unconditiobally. If you need to vent, talk or just Chat about all the important nothingness I am here for that.

You do not take up anyoneS space, this space is specifically for you to use as it is for everyone else who needs it. There is plenty Space for us all. I am happy you are still around!

no.effin'.way i ever get angry at you. told you many others here and i, all of us really, love you.

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 take some hugs, got an infinite amount for you.

you are a vulnerable sister who's been told horrendous things by someone who should know better and should not see any trans people ever again. heck ! she should be banned from being a psychatrist

Girl, hey hugs. I think you are valid and you are a woman. That is the truth.

So I'm completely out of the loop here, but why would you not be a good person? You were dealt a shitty hand, but that does not make you a bad person.

Girl listen to this 54 year old telling you that no one ever starts transitioning too late. If it makes you happy, don't look back.

It took me decades to get over my self hatred. But it doesn't need to take you that long and honey you are doing amazing and you are stronger than you realize. It takes huge guts to come back and be here. Do not be ashamed. You are a badass.

That psychiatrist sounds like a fucking idiot. Fucking yikes. You are not a bad person but you need a better therapist. Keep working on it, mental health can take a long time to smooth out but you can do it. If I can do it, you can do it. 💜

Loutreeee 😭
You're such a sweetie and I really mean that ❤️. I got every one of your messages during the current and previous spirals. I really appreciate your concern. Thank you so much for being here for me <3
Love ya, girl 🩷

Thank you so much ♥️. You're so fucking kind, I don't even deserve that, at all...
Thank you. Really. To you, to everyone here. Thank you 🩷

Loutre, tysm 😭
Yeah she was pretty bad. Still gives me trazodone and escitalopram tho and I wanna try those to see if they help. She's my med supply for now...

Thank you so much ♥️

Thank youu 😭♥️

Hi from new account!

You are officially French sweetheart now 🩷
Hope you're alright with that tag/title...

You are valid and seen and we support you. It is never too late for transitioning and self discovery and blooming into what you want and are meant to be. We want you here with us, we welcome you here, and you can take all the space you need.

By the way: you are a woman because you are a woman. There is no other justification wanted or needed.

Edit: Forgot to give you a hug 🫂 you clearly need it

I did not realised you erased your real account. I don't think anybody on blahaj hates you, and you are not a bother. You are giving activity to the community and without you and my precious little bitch, I would still try to repress everything. You are giving me hope with HRT even if I am older than you (your butt, omg) and that psychiatrist can eat all our shit combined. You are a sister and now I just want to offer you a big hug and sushi care with a hot beverage (chocolate, tea or whatever you want)

I'm not sure about being dealt a bad hand...I'm extremely privileged for a trans person, yet I still complain so much...
Thanks anyway ♥️

New account, also. Same Miisha tho

Mel, that's so fucking kind of you 😭
Tysm sis ♥️. I actually love sushi!

The psychiatrist can go screw herself, really. She's just...bad

Your...precious little bitch...do you mean Loutre? 👀
And what about my butt this time? 😭

Yes the cute little otter, mine

Didn't you post a pic of your butt at some point ?

Thank you so much, omfg 😭
I really do need a hug ♥️

Thank you. I honestly hope it doesn't take me as long. Life would be a lot more fun without these worries

Badass? Me? OwO

The psychiatrist is the worst. I'm not really sure I wanna go back there, despite her being my main and only SSRI source...

Thank you so much 🩷

I see. I'll leave you two to it then. Have fun girls 🩷

Didn't you post a pic of your butt at some point ?

Oh I've posted many 😂
More are on the way 😆

None of what you wrote makes you not a good person. You are struggling and you need help, but that has nothing to do with a moral judgement. I hope we can provide you with a little support with our words.

Another hug 🫂

the world is a better place with you in it, keep your chin up. youre loved, beautiful and deserve to be with us together!

Your butt is really pretty 👉👈 and I would like to have one as pretty as yours (for my little bitch).

Please get better 🫂

how lovely of you 😊
I am totally fine with it

Aww thank you, that's super sweet of you ❤️
I'll get better. I will 🩷

Also...we may be rivals now 😂 /j

I'm there and I ain't going anywhere so … feel free to message whenever you need to

winters pile
wise the wrinkle
speaking truth.

hug for a million years. ❤️

Im so so happy your alive. Also that psych is just straight up wrong and a fucking dick. How dare they say that to you.

Tysm 😭

About the user tag...I see you have someone (someone very nice), so if it's too much, just let me know and I'll get rid of it ❤️. It's just a silly little thing

girl, keep in mind that you are loved and I care about you.

still and will be here

luv u sis 💜

Maybe some day ^^ and if Loutre agrees when the time come

don't worry about the tag, it feels perfect as is :3

yup she's my special someone ^^ I love her so much for being there for me and I do my best being there for her 🩷

I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. And seriously, fuck that psychiatrist. You'd think especially someone like that would be a bit more tactful in choosing their words 😒

I'm not very good with uplifting words, or good advice. But I just want you to know that you're a wonderful woman, and I'm always happy to have you around. ❤️
You're nothing of those awful things you claim to be, and I hope you'll get to see that about yourself again soon.

That's really wholesome! Super happy for you two. Best of luck and much happiness, lovelies ❤️

I'll be here, ready. I'm not giving up! 😂

damn am i about to live the horniest dream life ever ? 🤤

Welcome back. We love you, we love having you here. You are a good person. The only bad person in this story is that psychiatrist.

We do not believe in good and bad people, so no. We don't believe that. However, even if we did we see no evidence you are bad, just in a lot of pain.

We are glad you are still around Miisha

Yeah, yeah, just put the yaoi pictures in the bag /s

I'm an internet rando here of you ever need to talk

Omg jfc i was so worried about you, please take care of yourself sister, i love you. I cant stand thinking about the worst happening. I dont want to see you go ❤️❤️❤️

Edit: wish i could hug you until all the pain goes away, hoping that through the internet is enough ❤️

thank youuu 🩷

(btw i see she called you sis, so your are our sister :3)

privilege does not make your complaints less valid!

new account? we doing tags now? you, my dear, cannot escape from the tag i gave you last month!

it appears that you are one lucky girl :3