Probably going to spend the day on top of a 13 story building. Going to be nice out though.

This post is for casual conversation if you don’t feel like making a post of your own.

I gotta work today then finish editing photos for this thing, they're due end of month so i have 2 days 🙃 I definitely procrastinated and I know I can get them done but these next 2 days gonna be tough on my audhd ass. wooooo

Canning happened. Only two of the five sealed but whatever. More mushrooms in the dehydrator, maybe carrots next, I'm tired, my finger is feeling better but not the best, whine whine I say.

Pressure canner or double boiler?

Pressure canner.

Hopefully I'll have time to experiment with a waterproofing technique I read about. If all goes well, I'll have a beanie that water should bead up and roll off of. I don't particularly need a waterproof beanie, but it's small enough for a quick test and old enough I don't mind if it gets ruined. If the test is successful, I'll commit to using the technique on a canvas drop cloth and replace my plastic camping tarp with it.

Nice. I haven't gotten one of those yet, so I've been limited on what I can do. Do you have any advice for someone shopping for one on a budget?

Welllll, I only have one because it was my one big yearly gift from my mother so. Er.

Convince someone else to buy it and give them lots and lots of canned stuff after??

You know what, that's actually really solid advice for me; I think I know just the person I can ask. Thank you and good luck on your future canning endeavors!

What's the waterproofing technique?

Continuously Twisting hair by myself.
I Feel uncomfortable doing so in public, however it seems authentic to me (I've done this for years). And yes, I might (consciously/subconsciously/unconsciously, or somewhere on a consciousness spectrum) feel and or predict uncomfortableness within a circumstance, and circumstantial existences (people), might conclude (to a 'degree/spectrum/binary' of possible justness/validity, that:) I twist hair because I feel and or think something about them (also possible as binary and/or spectrum, whatever is/was/will be true per moment)

To clarify: yes I do think sometimes and sometimes I think not, previous moments I describe in this post, I twisted (my) hair to twist (my) hair (period), (and yes biologically that soothed me).

I noticed sometimes people reacted with body language I deemed as:
unease, annoyed, confused; and thoughts of 'flirting?' and/or feelings combined with 'suspicion: I (might) have a/some 'ulterior motive' (I deem myself accurate ,at that time, at perceiving thoughts and emotions through body language and pattern recognition, including patterns recognized in specific (types of) people and their habits). I associated their actions with those people sort of internally figuring out how to react to me looking athletically muscular (did a 3x per week hypertrophy focused bodybuilding split at the time for a year whilst playing football(EU)/soccer(US) 3x a week lived actively, studied applied psychology at the time) and (self-described) moved in culturally associated 'feminine' and certainly in ways I adapted from having special interests for special people (many of those I found through the internet, as examples: XXXTENTACION, juice WRLD, Dominic fike ) (I embraced that with 'bro's' — really my bros at the time, I loved them & gave them what I had as of joy and fulfillment — who were willing to do so), whilst (at the time) 'outperforming the 'football social circle' physically and skillwise (at the time) which I sense(d) brought along a social dynamic that had much unease as the club I played at is a religious, (somewhat competitive, mostly at the youth teams) football club.

At the time I thrived, as I barely compared (myself) to anyone (I focused on doing what I loved, and what evolved myself) and lived as fulfillingly as I could in every moment. I wished (and now wish) the direction of the life I lived previously, for everyone (including myself).

Added note: also I did attend parties and social gatherings with people I loved (varying social circles, I kinda felt what the vibe was as of staying at home sleeping/relaxing/learning, or what social circle to join at what time). To clarify, I did have long experiences with my 'closest' circle which had made it comfortable to be with, and from there I had gained many experiences adding to the pattern recognition, guided by interest in psychology, from those experiences I socialized with pretty much anyone I met and deemed had something special (to me or them or idk how to define it — I find all are special — hence why I effectively found 'special' in many people)

Unfortunately those times passed, I love creating a fulfilling & sustainable life here and now / now and here (just played with words yay)

I love you
K : ))

Parties, when I felt free to express myself, I expressed myself in ways I enjoyed, as 100℅ sober (certainly "high off life", sometimes 'sugar-high', and sometimes perceived 'high' due to long times of fast) (psychiatrist once mentioned I eat "practically" (no another word suits the translation better, however I deem it practical) as in I eat when I wish to eat and fast for long times when I don't (which seems so correct to me)

Ok many words, bye, and love you. Also I wish we all love all.

Oh and also ecstatic at parties probably because of 'more intense feeling of emotions' as autism symptom (which I love) (yes also I've felt super sad for long times, which I also learned to love) then I survived the medical system, and now I rebuild myself again.

Thank you for being here and creating this space of sharing and caring (holy phrase *nose exhale indicating a laugh)