Depression fatigue is setting in hard today. I don't want to go to work tonight. I don't want to get up from the couch I've been exiled to. I can't sleep without nightmares and I can't stay awake during the day.
I feel so alone.
I am so alone.
My ex has friends and family for support and and I am all alone.
I feel like she is already over me.
I never want to love again.

Hang in there, girl. Know that you matter and that people love you. 💜 Sending you lots of love and positivity.

No one loves me. I have no friends and no family. I'm completely alone. I don't matter to anyone

Did your ex move you down to Texas and then break up with you? That's kinda a dick move. Have you thought about starting again somewhere else? Like Louisiana is right next door and much nicer imho. The food's definitely better. People are generally a lot friendlier too.

This situation sucks and I hope it gets better. You deserve to feel valued.

Yeah basically. No friends, no family, no money... I'm basically kinda stuck here with no prospects

I may just be an internet stranger, and this might not be my place to say, but there are people who love you. Everyone has someone who love them. You may not have met them yet. You do matter to me and many others. Anyone fighting the good fight for all us gals and enby pals is important in my heart, and im sure there's others who feel the same way. Again i may just be a rando stranger on the interweb but you do matter, i hope you find someone irl who treats you right, till then treat yourself. Smile at yourself in the mirror and compliment yourself. You've got this. Stay strong!

You do matter to people!

And if you feel like you don't matter to anyone right now, it's just because you haven't met them yet.

I know there are people out there who will love you and cherish your presence, because after years of feeling friendless and alone I finally found my people and (for some reason) they really enjoy having me around.

Community is out there and you will find it, don't give up ❤️

Is there a local queer community you could reach out to? If you don't know anyone there, could you rely on the empathy of people who might have once been in a similar position? Someone might at least be able to hook you up with a couch to crash on or work. I mean what is the point of a queer agenda if we're not going to run it like the Freemasons?

You gotta love yourself. If you are alone then you are free. There are no attachments holding you back. You can go anywhere! What do you want to do? Where do you want to go?

I don't have any money to go anywhere

Where would you go? If you saved up for a year would you have enough then?

I know the pain of heartbreak. Time makes it easier but it does suck for a while. Especially when you don't have a support network.

Just keep going. You are capable of building a life that makes you happy. It's so fucking hard. But i believe in you.

I guess somewhere that doesn't suck as hard as Texas, with a community big and active enough that I could quickly find a job and some roommates

Very doable! I live in a city of ~500k people and managed to find that. I think most cities should be similar. Had to live on the outskirts of town for a year while getting to know people but it was so worth it.

Do you have a car?

Yeah, I'm the only one in the house beside her mom that has a car

Its probably unintentional but the spacing on mobile makes it look like you wrote some kind of poem.

I cant imagine what youre feeling, but the bad feelings you have mean you cared, mean it was real. That's the cost of love, the pain you feel when it's over. I dont think thats a fair price imo, but love, REAL love is worth any cost.

I was living with my long time partner when i went through it. I basically ran away and joined the circus lol

Pick a city with a cool art scene. If it has cool art it'll have a queer community who would love to have you. Live in your car while looking for a job. That is quite extreme but could be fun depending on your perspective!

Tbh Texas sounds like a shithole unless you have a ranch lol. You can find what you're looking for. Trust yourself!

I could always use more friends. Want to hang out?

💜