So, still a while before I'll be on HRT. Now I still have a body running on testosterone. You know how transmascs say they start to notice women more when they're on t?

Anyway, I turned around somewhere and immediately saw a very goodlooking woman. Hair a bit messy, as if she had just come from the shower. But a really nice makeup and really beautiful facial features. (At least on the first very quick look, anyway).

So, I immediately go "damn, I need to make a good impression on that girl!!" and my brain goes full flirtmode. Mind you, all of this happened in a fraction of a second. Less than a human reaction time.

And then I noticed I'm looking at a mirror 🤣🤣

Guess I'm getting reasonably okay with makeup? It'll get only better from here 💃

Also, I don't really like it how testosterone makes me concentrate on this kind of stuff the way it does. It feels good to know that by the end of this year testosterone will not be directing my actions like that. But hey, now the two testosterone factories that are facing an immediate closure gave me my first experience ever of seeing myself as something attractive. What a nice farewell gift from their workers!

I guess this is my subconscious also really starting to accept me as a woman, not just female.

That's awesome! I've heard other people say that this happened to them too, hopefully I can experience it at some point.

I had the same with the frustration re: T doing that "turn neck and look at woman" thingy!

Once I got on T blockers that vanished like overnight - a few days and done. It felt like I finally could be without that annoying voice that said "omg look ladies there"