I'm doing great, honestly! Interacting with the awesome people on Lemmy, living life peacefully with my bf, taking care of the house...okay, that last part was a lie, I'm lazy af 😆

But really tho, things are going surprisingly well rn. I'm having fun living life. My E injection ritual (I'm fixing my levels, don't worry), my ritual of boofing prog every night, preparing food for my bf to take to work the next day. I even started taking a fiber supplement again and it's really helping! Despite the antibiotics, the kratom and my irregular eating habits, my digestive system really is healing! And of course, that means I'll be able to have sex again soon. And tbh...I can't fucking wait ❤️

I'm having a ton of fun posting to 196. Hornyposting is amazing and I enjoy it so much, and having so many kind people responding, thanking me for my posts...it's honestly great. Thank you so much Lemmy. Truly, honestly, thanks for all the amazing safe spaces (communities) here. I love it so much 💜

I feel...alive. For the first time in a while, things are looking quite positive. I'm not dying from dysphoria, I'm not breaking down because of "bottoming issues", I'm not having relationship troubles...I'm not feeling hopeless because SRS is so far into the future. Instead, I'm looking forward to it ❤️
I'm not crying every day because I started HRT late, I don't spend every waking second hating my body. I look down and I see a pair of boobs. And honestly? That's the best feeling in the world 🥹 (well, sex comes pretty darn close 😆)
I love that I joined Matrix. I love chatting with friends from Lemmy on Element. I'm not alone and that's a very powerful thing to me. Thank you <3

I feel great. And I know, I know it's because of the drugs. I know things would be much worse without them. I fully admit to myself that I have a problem and that quitting will be rough. But honestly? I'm enjoying the moment. Quite a bit.

Thanks for being here, everyone. Thanks for welcoming me here, no matter what. Thanks for bearing with my frequent shenanigans.
I love you all so much 🩷

Side tangent: And thanks to the dev(s) of the Alexandrite frontend for Lemmy! Hands down my favorite one. I just wish that it would get updated on the blahaj.zone server, because the latest version actually supports uploading pictures, which is the only thing I'm missing. It's really not the end of the world tho. I'm sure an admin will get to it, one day ❤️

Yes I use Alexandrite too! It's great for slow internet connections, beyond initial loading time

I'm glad to see you're feeling a bit better miisha. Have you taken any steps toward therapy/diagnosing the mental health issues you suffer from, as others suggested in your previous posts? Its best to take action on these things while you feel good, since we often dont have the headspace when we feel bad!

I see your memes all the time and I love them. Thank you for posting. :)

you're awesome sis ! love you 🩷

That's wonderful Miisha! Music to my ears 💜

Honestly, thank you <3
Love you, sis 🩷

I'm glad. Tysm! ❤️
Side note, but I totally read your name as heparin, lol

Thank you. Honestly no, I'm still waiting for my new therapist. This isn't a "step", but I've firmly decided NOT to go back to that psychiatrist. I mean, there are many reasons for that, but...asking my deadname as soon as I sit down? Holy fucking shit, fuck that lady
Thank you 🩷

Yes, Alexandrite is great! It's pretty (imho), it works really well, it has all the features I need (except for uploading pictures, damn it 😭) and I like the sidebars!
And it feels more robust than Photon...Photon just breaks for no reason sometimes, or maybe I'm just unlucky.
Either way, you go, fellow Alexandrite user! 💜

Love you to Miisha! Getting called sis, it gave me a teary moment. I’m so very touched

WAIT NO, I DID A DUMB
I'm so sooorryy 😭
I'll delete it

I'm so freaking sorry 😭
I totally wasn't paying attention. I fucked up baaaaad 😭😭😭
So sorry...

That’s what iPhone autocorrects it too all the time.

can you... put it back, can I be sis? pls i’m not kidding 🥺

Well done for sticking to your guns! Make sure you take active effort toward your mental health goals x

Honestly your posting, including the hornyposting, is fun as hell, thanks for contributing so much 😄 Really happy to see you've found your joy

Of course! Anyone can be sis 💜
I'm adding a user tag to your profile. You are sis now 🩷

Thank you, I'm glad 🩷