The final thing stopping me from wiping an old laptop and tinkering with it was the majora's mask recomp save files. I've found those and moved them to a thumb drive to maybe transfer to another device.

The battery is shot on this thing so can't do much with it. Maybe I'll finally try arch or put on one of the BSDs to look at

I had an event in St Kilda tonight, on Fitzroy St, and won’t be heading back there anytime soon. Been a long time since I’ve been in that area. It’s soul-less, don’t see the appeal other than it’s a street near a mid beach. Wasn’t St Kilda happening once upon a time? Not anymore.

Hey I’m sorry for the mental breakdown. I’m probably going to delete all of that soon.

I am just really not doing well and not catching a break.

There is no Sleep, only Stickiness.

St kilda is a scum hole if you peek behind the curtain.

But it has its charms.

so many hugs

you are allowed to be human 😘😘😘🫂🫂🫂

meth

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It's nicer during the day but it's always been sketchy, at least since the 80s. I've never known Fitzroy St to not be mostly a shithole and have only gone there for Prince Bandroom shows. These days the Espy is just another rip off pub. Getting some take away and a six pack from Ackland St to share on the beach around dusk would be my premium St Kilda experience.

I'll have the same as Julius Caesar would have had before riding into battle

No one's expecting you to do well. Looking in, everything about your current state of mind seems normal. You've been hit with a bunch of major negative life impacts and are experiencing the trauma of that.

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Oh...

Sometimes I worry about your food choices, Force. I mean, Julius Caesar? Look how he ended up!

Lobscouse & gin please chef.

Been unable to sleep and have been washing all the laundry and blankets. Gathering Melbcat’s meds and belongings into her carrier to more easily clean but I’ll be leaving her litterboxes, beds and bowls where they are. I don’t want to look at the empty spaces.

I guess I’m just numbing out and focusing on the things I can fix because I have no idea how to even process this. I miss my baby girl.

A prawn cocktail, a chicken burger and a sickly-sweet and gelatinous cheesecake, please.

Alright rain. Enough with the blue balls.

I slept like shit

🫂

You might feel like you don't know how to process what has happened, but what you are doing is processing it. Busy work is a way to distract your conscious mind and give your subconscious the room to process - your conscious thoughts might grab all the attention, but it is the subconscious that does all the real heavy lifting.

The grief of loss is extremely painful to go through, but Melbcat loved you and was loved in return. Death cannot take that away, and moving from present to past does not diminish it. The time you had together and the relationship you had will always be there, you are just viewing it from a different angle.

used to be the place to get European cakes and pastries

Famous in perpetuity!

For all the wrong reasons!

His salad is pretty good

Many years ago I started making porridge mix and putting it into individual serving containers so I could take it to work. Then I decided that microwaving porridge was too messy so only make it at home now. But I've continued putting it in individual containers, and it's only just occured to me now that it would be much easier to make it in a big container and measure it as needed 🤦‍♀️

So, once the three containers I have now are used up I'm changing to a big container instead, which will reduce my porridge hassle factor considerably.

There's this witches market in Ferntree Gully today. I managed to get out of having to drive an hour to a market to buy rocks by checking the website and seeing they're doing a similar thing closer to us in two weeks time

his politics stunk but he had good military strategy and management

he was also a good writer, his commentaries were interesting and well observed https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Commentarii_de_Bello_Gallico

I do porridge everyday, I just make it in the breakfast bowl in the microwave, but I make very plain porridge, I have with brown sugar and a little milk

it's very easy

maybe if I can get some citrus and make some marmalade I can have toast again

All this ❤️

80s & 90s it was great but there's so many more modern cake places now those old shops on Ackland lost their popularity years ago. I had my first borscht at Sherezade many years ago.

Hot flushes on top of a sticky night and a high humidity. Fuck.

I wish I knew something to say to make it better. All I know is that it will get better over time

My bed fan was on all night, it helps to reduce the stickiness a bit.

I had the ceiling fan and the pedestal fan on high as well as the window open.

what do the birds say, birds stop singing when rain is coming

I have evaporative cooling, so on warm nights I generally leave the fan on and have the window open to keep the air moving through. The bed fan is nice because it blows air under the covers (which is a very light cotton doona - I can't sleep uncovered) and it has a remote control, so if I wake up too warm I can turn it on/up without moving. It also helps to remove moisture from the bed so it doesn't feel quite so sticky.

I'm glad I got my mulching done when I did, working outside in this humidity is pretty icky. I'm trying to chip away at the rest of the work a little bit at a time but it's definitely not the weather for sustained effort.

There's an old Scottish tradition of pouring a batch of porridge in a drawer then slicing off a piece as required, sometimes to be fried.

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Hmm. I may have to look into this.

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Given the relative decline of letter writing and the relative increase in government funded bowel screening, the overall proportion of poo in our mailing system is probably at an all time high.

This thought brought to you by an old fart... who thought they had a few more years but was told by the doctor it's now available at 45 ....me...the old fart is me.

farts won't do, you need something with a bit more substance

it's warm out there, no rain 😠

I think it's available at 45 but they don't send it unsolicited until 50? I just did my 'welcome to 50!' bowel screening, and the nice thing about having that out of the way is that I no longer have to go to the toilet thinking 'poo! I should save that for science!'

Right. I'm bringing out the big guns.

I'm going to wash my sheets.

Surely this will spite the rain gods.

Edit: in other news, tried this nicotine spray today and I've barely touched the vape all day. I found my exit.

It's coming

I got my hair cut.

I get this done once a month like clockwork…and despite this regular routine I have to take off so much hair