I was always a night owl. My best work and my thoughts are more clear at night. So what I did was I started working nights remotely in a different country.

Best decision ever.

When do you sleep? When there's nothing else needing done? When TF is that when you can see all the impeding things that others cam't/don't/won't? 😅🫣

I see so many ADHD memes, which I identify with, but I'm never sure, if it's just because of other reasons.

Like, at night it's me-time.
I have peace, no calls, everything I do feels like a treat, because I want to do it and I'm not feeling forced to do something, like during the day.
I'm usually productive, if I'm just left alone.
I'll be learning and even producing faster, just because I'm not forced into it.
And after a unknown period of time, I'll switch the project. But I wouldn't have accomplished that much work, if I would have just been forced into it.

Going with the flow and all, but the flow feels more like a waterfall, that takes me with it - and I love it.

Now as pretending to be a functional adult, I can't do this anymore, because all my energy is already sucked up with all the shit I have to accomplish, so even taking the trash out feels like a huge burden, and checking my bank account and doing taxes gives me panic attacks - although by now, I've got it somewhat under control to only feel very anxious

Amphetamines obviously work, because they give me the same feeling at the current task, as I would have alone at night with something I love.
But I know, I'm just tweaking myself into functioning and to be actually content with my life, I'd need the time to do whatever the fuck I currently want - sometimes just for a few hours, sometimes it would take weeks/months, where I'm only focused on that one thing.
During school I was able to pull all-nighters, but now that doesn't work anymore.

I don't know, what I really want to say with this post, but I just miss the times, when I was free to do my will...
And it seems ADHD people kinda get me

Groening*

That feels backwards to me. I'd rather my best hours be when I'm not working

The trick to enjoyable work isn't finding something you enjoy, it's finding something you get lost in. Being mentally aware helps greatly with this. Makes it so that I don't feel exhausted at the end of a work day.

Thanks for typing it out, because it's the exact way I feel too. I hate being an adult with responsibilities.

Writing this long of a post in an adhd thread?

Daring

Well, was hard to actually tell want I wanted to say.
Still can't hit the nail on the head

But I thought, that exactly this community would understand my ramblings, although I don't expect to anyone really read it though ;⁠-⁠)

Thanks for your understanding :⁠-⁠)

as one of the people who pioneered remote work back in the 90s, you're welcome

It's election night in my country so I'm currently a confusing mess of all three Marges. Too tired to think well, yet too absorbed by numbers on colored polls to fully relax and drift off.

On an unrelated note: Ninja Turtles: Splintered Fate is on sale for 3 bucks right and and it’s really fun.

Thanks to the internet and COVID, I guess.

I rather enjoy my work. My career exploded after I switched to nights and WFH. Zero office drama or distractions.

Damn it. I guess I'm downloading it.

we were mailing floppies and zip drives back and forth in the 90s. internet was too slow.

Nice. I think the only work from home I could remember back then was telemarketing.

Also you could answer phones for the airlines. Reverse telemarketing

Anyone here (who's ADHD) ever had the sudden realization:

"Oh... my parent is definitely ADHD. That explains a lot."

Mine was a few years ago.

Oh true! Nice!

yup! one of our neighbors did it during the day, twice a week. i think. maybe thrice. just enough to get flight benefits. which was the only reason anyone did it. there were better jobs.