My egg finally cracked, or more like it has been cooking for a while and now it is finally done?

I turned 35 recently and despite all the really obvious signs over many many years - into gender bender anime/manga, occasional crossdressing for "fun" at home, is it just a kink? huge Miku fan, do I like her / want to be her? etc. I always kind of just compartmentalized it as a kink mostly. And I have a pretty stable life atm, I'm doing well, but maybe I felt a few things didn't fit.

I've always been slow with my feelings, but I've been reading all these experiences on egg_irl and transmemes lately. Especially Brook2Valley comics, and these memes/posts below really resonated.

https://alx.lemmy.blahaj.zone/lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/40941931

https://alx.lemmy.blahaj.zone/lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/41147595

I did some broader research to really confirm things for myself and damn, just admitting it finally felt euphoric. So much that I couldn't sleep and apparently it has fixed my ADHD.

I'm not even remotely ready to share with my irl friends yet, but I started looking at health care options locally that are trans friendly.

Welcome to the family, we're so happy you're here! We all love and support you! I'm 36 so I know know how weird it is figuring this out late when the signs have always been there. Every little step you take is going to fill you with joy and reinforce what you know deep down. You are not alone. You got this!

♡♡♡Nissa♡♡♡

Thank you so much ♡

wheeeeeeee! i'm glad for you. this is a very exciting moment. i'll give you my two pennies, do as you wish with them: if possible, and you are ready for it search for local support groups. for me it was very important to semi-regularly meet those other trans people, and actually see their faces. online discourse is helpfull too, but knowing there are other trans people in town you can connect with (more or less) was a "i am not alone" moment. (i got dragged there by a trans friend, i came out to first, so technically i already knew, but .. there were even more of us! 🤩)

enjoy your day. and go forward in your pace. you will find even more joy. :3

Congratulations!

Congrats on cracking!

Came out in early 30s as well. Mixed feelings back then, like:

• is this it? What happens now?
• Did I just cranked up difficulty setting to "extra hard"?
• it feels so liberating to be my true self (or taking the first to explore who I really am)

It's gonna be a wild ride! Esp the first year of coming out or GAHT. It felt like a puberty I never had but wish I had

Have fun!

Thanks, that's good advice

Welcome to the club! I'm glad you found out and hope that as a community we can offer support and get updates from your end ❤️

How are your health care options?

Thanks, it's looking pretty good.
I'm in Alberta, Canada and there's a few local programs that look great for me.

Same sister! I was 42 it happens when it happens. It's a lot to take in. I recommend a therapist the specializes in Trans support. That has helped me tremendously.

Congrats on the cracking! Love the Brook comics too, they're great.

Congratulations!

Me, up until a few weeks ago!

34, myself. I lucked out with a partner that's going through similar self-discovery and they're bisexual so as long as I'm the same person, they don't care how I present myself.

I have been looking into gender affirming care nearby and I would have to drive an hour away just for an appointment, and I'm looking at probably around $500 for the first appointments and prescription, which is about 1/3 my savings account... So it's been a Rollercoaster of emotions.

Hopefully you have some kind of support structure around you to help you through your own Rollercoaster! If you can find some local LGBT groups, check them out! They're great for resources and just general friendship! I had about 10 people join me at the park for hammocking a few weeks ago, and all of them were from the group.

I'm happy you found yourself! The road ahead won't be easy, but it will be more than worth it.

Thats the only thing i miss from reddit is brooke2valley, i wish she was herr on lemmy. I think she attempted to get into the fediverse at one point. I think she just kinda has a lot going, and doesnt have the time/energy to balance 8 diff accounts.

Congraties on your first step in your journey! I turned 32 just a couple weeks ago. I feel the wishing i was younger thing honestly. But the best time to start figuring out yourself is always right now. I genuinely wish you the best of luck!

Also dont be afraid to come here to post or vent or ask questions or whatever you want, this community is incredibly supportive and you should absolutely feel safe being here, welcome!❤️❤️

Everyone's been so supportive, thanks T_T, my thoughts have been a hot mess, just a mix of anxiety and happiness, with moments of lucidity.

yay!!!!!

so many newbies recently, it's made me feel not alone :3

Yay! Another sister ☺️